I am where I am

I want to stand up and say, "I am where I am and it is good." To me that feels like a statement with the least resistance and most surrender to this moment. If my present is a product of the past, and my future outcome determined by the present, I really cannot do anything but accept where I am. By accept, I dont mean being passive and silent suffering. Surrender is a state of making peace with the present moment while feeling free to desire and work towards whats wanted. Granted its hard to be that way all the time, but its very liberating and deeply fulfilling to acknowledge when that nugget of a moment presents itself and you are just content to breathe in and out and are organically self-sufficient.

The opposite of surrender, in my understanding, amounts to a feeling of stress, where you are in one place, but you want to be somewhere else and the discord of separation tears you apart. It could also amount to worry without an option of action. (we all know what feels like).

Anyways, my statement for the day is, "I am where I am and it is good."

The number 17

Its happened to me on two occasions. I'm sound asleep at night and I hear the number 17 in my head, and asking me to open my eyes. I dont want to wake up as I find it really hard to go back to sleep, but I did on these two occasions and on one occasion the time was 4:17 and on another it was 6:17 or 7:17. I dont know what this is about. Why 17 and why does this voice keep saying it and asking me to make note?